I’m going to hand you my heart, okay? It might be out of friendship or maybe even love. Before I do, I want you to know this.
The heart in your hands is tender from deep wounds. On the surface of those wounds are scars, but in reality, those wounds are never truly healed . Below those scars are the moments I’ve been hurt deeply and the pain I’ve suffered. This heart has been damaged from friends that left me, lovers that hurt me and from loss of people I love deeply. Within the cracks of my once shattered heart lives an anxiety. It is a fear fostered by all the wrongdoings my heart endured and fueled by the thought that my heart could once again be broken.
From the outside, my heart looks strong and sturdy and capable of withstanding anything. This is because, as I put back the pieces each time it was shattered, I learned. I don’t hide my emotions. I work hard to communicate. I love fiercely and intensely because life is too short not to. I give. I give immensely, because if I hand you my heart, I am all in. I refuse to be trapped by my past or to hide the fact that my heart has suffered. I share where I have been and what I’ve been through. I don’t do it for want of sympathy, but rather for understanding. I know that the further you hide the hurt, the more it hurts inside. There is value to letting it out. I want you to know where to tread lightly and step with care.
So when I hand you my heart, please know that it took courage, bravery and vulnerability. Recognize that I am willing to risk it all to grow our connection and relationship. Understand that in giving you my heart I hold you to the highest regard. Be gentle with it. Take care of it. Protect it as if it were your own. In return, this heart will offer kindness, understanding, forgiveness and most of all, love.
Kim Libertini is all too familiar with grief and the Co-Founder of Goodgrief App, the social network for loss available for less than a latte, for download in the App Store, Google Play and www.goodgriefapp.com. You can follow Goodgrief App on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter.