The Abyss and Back

~Kim Libertini I felt like it needed a name. For years I have called it “The Abyss.” Appropriately, the abyss is defined as a bottomless pit. In times when my heart has been shattered and my mind and body are overwhelmed with pain I find myself there. It’s the place I go to when the … Continue reading The Abyss and Back

The Road of Life

~Kim Libertini The road of life is treacherous. The unanticipated twists and turns are difficult to handle.  There are so many unpredictable variables that fold into the journey. It is bumpy and can be very unstable.  For those of us who have experienced head on collisions on this road, it becomes difficult to put ourselves … Continue reading The Road of Life

Souvenirs of the Past

~Kim Libertini I walked into the kitchen as my youngest son, now eleven, was climbing on the counter to reach the upper cabinets. He quickly smiled and said, “What happened to those coconut bowls we had? Have you seen them?”  The mention of those bowls take me back to shopping in the Vietnamese market for … Continue reading Souvenirs of the Past

Triggers of Loss

~Kim Libertini Photo by Nathalie Désirée Mottet on Unsplash The change of season was quick this year.  Overnight, I woke to crisp cold air and the smell of fallen leaves.  The hours of daylight are decreasing. I feel it.  Fall reminds me of home. A small town nestled in the Hudson River Valley of New … Continue reading Triggers of Loss

No Signs From The Afterlife

After my mom died, I thought she would appear in numerous ways and signs. A butterfly hanging about, a warm presence in the room, a vivid dream. I imagined that her essence would feel obvious and overwhelming, an external experience impossible to ignore. That hasn’t been the case. While I’ve seen her in a couple … Continue reading No Signs From The Afterlife

Measuring Progress

~Kim Libertini Scientific and mathematical by nature, my mind feels safe with quantifiable metrics used to measure progress.  I need clear and concrete boxes to check that help me to categorize my level of success. This holds true for both my personal and professional life.  This is part of why I struggled so much when … Continue reading Measuring Progress

The Five Year Mark

Photo by Nadine Shaabana on Unsplash ~Kim Libertini  Milestones of life are commonly celebrated in increments of five. I am not sure the same can be said for the years after loss. It’s been five years. As I say those words, my nose starts to sting, my eyes well with tears and it feels like my breath … Continue reading The Five Year Mark

In Stillness Together, Yet Apart

Go to the trees, says my inner voice. Go to where nature’s calm thrums louder than human anxiety. Sidle up to bark, birds, flowers and water. Align with natural rhythms as a reminder that not everything has changed. This is what I keep hearing. And so that’s where my kids and I have been since … Continue reading In Stillness Together, Yet Apart

Carrying Grief

Photo by DeMorris Byrd on Unsplash ~Kim Libertini I had just escaped for a few days on a mid-winter getaway.  As I sat at the hotel bar on the first evening, I chatted with a couple from Australia. It didn’t take long before our conversation was joined by the bartender and a Connecticut man, as we all exchanged … Continue reading Carrying Grief